schools in ! game r out again haha. Lets GO



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have been going to settlers cafe to play board games lately thanks jasmine for introing me haha now a few predictions on my common test ^^

Biology-pass
Chemistry-pass
Math-Fail-<-<-this isnt a predition this is fact and if it doesnt come true i'll chop of my hands
Economics-Gray area
GP-Gray area

a round of Bang! anyone ?

and i came up with a lame analogy to life haha its like a board game there are times when you have an advantage and times where you dont and then when the gameends you die simple as that haha o.O thats so corny i cant believe i typed that.

right there and i dont know what to do :(

o.O havent post for long long time.
weee my modem spoilt hahaha. smiley irritated. smiley sees red light on modem. smiley sees red light but understand what red light means. smiley feel sin--el is stupid cause they didnt leave give smiley a instruction manual when they set-up his modem. so now smiley is sitting in the community centre so smiely can send his proposal. and blog.

why is everyone overseas again. -.-

Its amazing how adults can interpret someone so differently haha in my opinion i have two different pesonalities. the student and the son.

The student
seen by his teachers as full of potential, a tad lazy and unfocused but has potential for greater things. The teacher respects his decision and only advices him if he has stepped out of line or when he really needs help

The son
Seen by his parents as a lazy kid immature and ignorant. They feel he still doesn't know what the situation in the world is like out there though he probably knows more than them. THey feel he has potential and wants him to do well. Constantly questioning his decisions and whether they are right or wrong and asking him to make the opposite for the sake of doing so. The son is also constantly compared with his genius of a sister (im proud of you haha. all the way !) and always asked why he cant be more hardworking like her. both sister and son are constantly compared. This does not motivate them and only earns their ire.

I think teachers are like that cause they dont know me well enough and parents are like that cause they know you too well sometimes to the point where they think they know everything but actually know so little. This is not fault of theirs its just growing up i guess. Probably the reason why i want to be a teacher XD

I need some support and friends and teacher and siblings alone arent just going to cut it.

lalala im here for another random post. i think hmm did you know ? dang i forgpt what i was going to type. do you get those things ? like you suddenly forget what your'e trying to do ? hmm this is one of them.

Feeling really down and out now. All the things happening recently ust adds up. Wow and i so desperately wanted not to, but i cant help it its who i am. yes i am tearing. frustrated angry and whatnot i just wanna let it all out in one good storm of tears so i can be happy again. i probably cry more than most other guys. but they dont know me. why the hell does everyone think im must be happy i telling you now to FUCK OFF the moment i stay quiet you guys come over and ask me what's wrong. just cause im hapy mose of the time doesnt mean i should always be happy. everyone has their own situations. it isnt about me. i dont believe in birthday wishes simply because i have had the same wish for 17 years of my life and it never happens and yet i keep wishing the same thing over and over. no one knows this wish and they probably shouldnt some things just arent meant to be told. if i ever said it my family would ask me not to worry and my friends would pity me. fuck off i dont need your pity i need a solution. if you ever solve it tell me but i dont think you ever will. if it has existed since discovery in 1776 and no one has solved it what makes you think you can. what makes you think im so interested in bio its all because of this goddam thing and now more people are involved. and people worry about why they cant pass their exams and that seems so trivial compared to this.

i am afraid of death.